Valuable not Vulnerable. A journal entry by Anita Gracey

The shadow of Coronavirus has silenced the world. But as a physically disabled woman, the world has opened-up for me.

With a squeeze of a button I see National Theatre productions on YouTube. Daily I have rediscovered Melissa Etheridge rocking from home. Jason Byrne is sweating workouts through Instagram; I have dusted off my dumbbells and he is inspiring my exercise. I have collaborated with Gary Lightbody, beaming from his LA rental. I run a book club through Zoom, isn’t it interesting to see other people’s décor? Normally I cannot access their homes. I am What’s App video-calling friends, friends whom I normally text. I have signed up for a writing class with Google Classroom. I celebrated Poetry Ireland Day with live readings on Facebook. I am wondering, what will I do next? In fact, what I feel is given to me, in these extraordinary times, is choice.

Normally I am limited by access, expense or transport, but now feel I am on a level playing field with everyone. It has been interesting to hear people complain about how they cannot go anywhere and have a fear of isolation – that is my normal!

There will have to be questions raised, of how the UK government disseminate news and advice. Into a week of the lockdown I phoned a friend with a learning disability who asked me, “what is a pandemic”? There has been a lot of new words bouncing off the tongue. But then I was thinking, what is offered to people whom English is not their first language, and do not follow the mainstream media, or could comprehend a flyer. What is good for disabled people, has beneficial ripples for everyone.

Also, my sister has been confined to bed in her nursing home since this began. She cannot use the phone, so I have been sending her letters. I got a letter from her, saying she is well. She thanks me very much for my letters and pictures, though I note, she did not mention my poetry! Wouldn’t it be great if all care homes had internet access within each room, as a minimum standard? This pandemic has highlighted nursing homes as vulnerable in a financially driven society. We deserve more.

Businesses, I am hoping, will appreciate they can think ‘outside the box’ in identifying different ways they can run a service, so it can be more inclusive, that we are valuable not vulnerable.

We will no longer accept a shrug of the shoulder, or points to the wheelchair as blame for not receiving a service. Spring 2020 is a turning point and we can see what can be achieved and should not accept less.


Anita is supported by an iDA award, managed by the University of Atypical on behalf of the Arts Council of Northern Ireland.


  1. Thought provoking Anita.

    1. Thank you, take care!

  2. Hi Anita loved reading your letter
    I will write a letter to Brenda very soon

    1. Brenda would love that, very thoughtful of you. Bernie has been visiting her, communicating through her window. Hope you and yours are doing well.

  3. Anita thank you for sharing this! You’re soo right and it’s an amazing opportunity for change of approach to access for a plethora of services.

    1. We have to be positive!

  4. this is SUCH an interesting perspective … makes so much sense when you think about it – but who would have thought ?. Am going onto Facebook for the first time in — an awful long time – to share this 8 ) X A

    1. Thank-you so much!! You taking the time to share is such a massive compliment.

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